ok here goes....
AJ and Eb are engaged ...they have been since earlier this year x Get up off the floor and read the rest x
he is just 18 she is 16, he is my big boy, he was away a few (6) hours drive away and was texting me like crazy about what he should do, how he should do it (I wish I kept the conversation)
In the end I told him it was his choice, he was a big boy and big boys had to make choices themselves AND face whatever those choices bring....so he asked she said yes a ring was bought, she wears it with al the love and pride we all did !!!
Yes they fight, yes they argue, they both have lived lives beyond anything I have, experienced a different kind of pain, which from memory brings a sweet glow when the good times come along, a passion to embrace the good unfortunately the scares of the past are very deep but now they have each other and that make me and them smile.
There is a flip side to all the glow, it is called a mother's pain at watching someone else share her babies heart...another woman that they want to see smile at all cost (even hurting and swearing at mum).
The pain is excruciating at times.... the happy face must be put on, I don't want to dampen the newness and excitement for them....they baby sit and I get a little glimpse of what will be if they are blessed...fat chubby babies, cute tears and temper tantrums when they leave (from me)....
for right now they are happy, no planning for 'the day', no planning for 'babies' just enjoying the silly things of squishy photos of faces, late night trips for ice cream at the servo....
who am i to take that away????????????
*gulp* Off the floor is right.
ReplyDeleteIt's out of your hands and there's nothing you can do but support. Mind you.. I'd flip at my daughter. :)
Even the 'thought' of my boy having babies of his own is enough to send me into full blown panic attack. Nowhere near ready to even think about how nice it would be... You seem very calm.. I imagine you had to work your way through to get there. But yes... support is all you can do... Not sure I'd be as understanding... I hope I would be. At least you like her ... that's gotta be a bonus :)
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