I am so busy being here and there and everywhere.....


I love it will catch up soon ..


xx

omg

Monday 18
went for a job trial at the local Childcare centre, told work I had an urgent call back from the doctor.

Nothing alllllllll  wwwwweeeeekkkkk llllllloooooooonnnnngggggg

Friday 22.
....1.30PM
walked out of work .....saying I'm heading to mum's for the weekend to deliver Soks the cat, mums cat ran away last month and it ha been nothing but tears all around.

3pm I hand my mum the cat dad hands me a wine......cooks my dinner. I text my sister telling her I've heard nothing, she tells me to ring.....NO I am too fragile for any more knock backs....so I email....got a reply straight away, they loved me but I didn't mention a Dip in my resume .....I email back I will finish within 3 months.....

Sunday 24
7.12 am
An email to say that changed everything....could I go for another trial Monday or Tuesday???  Yes I could DA rang work and told them I was unwell.....no contact or text from anyone......


Monday 25
7.17 am  a call to see if I wanted to work for the day at the 'trial' job.....?  Then an '' You have the job we love love you'' no second trial just a job....

5.23pm a text asking if I could work the next day?  yes......

Tuesday 26 ''can't think straight time wise'' they ask me to a staff meeting at 6pm after my 8-4 shift? yes..
6.20pm get introduced as the new group leader in Junior Kindy and told how wonderful I am...

work 8-4 Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday..... don't know which way is up bought cat food and alcohol only and made my family eat whatever the hell they could get for themselves....
I am still buzzing I love it 34 total but 21 max 2-3 year olds I can't think straight, I go to bed stuffed and wake up with a smile.....

Thursday 5.23 am resign by email (gutless I know) ...... fuk the reply I got by 7.27am along the lines of ring the DP to sort it out I can't leave......fuk you I just did!!!!!!

4.38pm an email to tell staff I'd resigned, they have filled my job, and have more hours for TA's.... I read it with a smile.....door closed  I have had 4 staff contact me expressing their shock I'd left.....
 no comment 'nuf said

calls / emails / texts

I got the job....

job....

I took an hour off Monday to do a job trial at a long daycare ...this has been my never say never goal for a very long time I don't want to be a teacher but I do want a room of my own and little people in my life so I grabbed my hat and off I went.

It was amazing I could have stayed all day and more mentally I was rearranging the room and working on planning for the kids already in the room....I went to back to the real world with 'hi I'm here now (they think I was at the doctors) The duty roster lady came and asked what my duties were and how I felt about doing them, because they didn't think I'd be in and had sorted something else out...change it I'm here.

The CT left me to it only asking that I take a photo of something, the SWD came late for my 10 minutes cause she couldn't be bothered looking for me and knew I'd be right until they were back in class and she could sit down for 10 minutes ......

Then it was the end of the day and I came home..... only to go back the next day and have someone wonderful ask if I was ok ...yep more than 24 hours later did someone bother to give a shit if I was ok....

please god let that phone ring from 10 weeks on two weeks off working 21 hour a week to 38 hours full time in a role that needs love paper work and long hours I am so ready for my mind to be challenged   

Not ready for this

My first an only experience with this and while I HATE school pick up I don't know if I like this either xx

My baby is growing up .... At least he will still want me ..... For petrol money xx

Addicted

I am addicted to the Facebook page of Allison Baydan Clays committal hearing the transcripts are amazing I find myself lost in every word xx

It's a bit like a soapie but real

my week in pix

Help

I did it.... I have put it off for 18 months but I did it this afternoon I didn't get my vowel job the lady said I was under qualified when I meet all the qualification standards plus more... Some of you will remember MLF his mum is best friends of the founders of the vowels, she is a patron and major sponsor so is her husband he builds she pays her parent sponsor 4 children @ $25000 a year

You see my point ...

I texted her and asked for her help on getting a job she knows I can do it is that bad
My reasons are my hours have been cut by 14 this year and a lovely lady ( no sarcasm ) came to replace me she did work experience last year I worked with her ... Has been given 12 hours to work with MyMate in the pm when I go home
Both of us are as uncomfortable with the situation but what can I do smile and reassure her I'm not upset and bitter but I am, really really disillusioned by the fact

Justification to move????

and I did

after much tooing and froing should we go to the beach?  should we go to the Tavern with the kids? Should I just crawl into bed with another wine or two? the shitty raining one minute clear the next was swaying the vote in the end we said lets just do it....

we headed to the coast, we went to Waxy's noise pub on the strip, we amazed BB's gf with out choice,we normally head to Coffee Club, Toscarnis or Hog's Breath all very family friendly....!!!! that we both has a scooner and sang to the band as well as taking selfies shocked her even more...

we looked at rain and wind battered coastline it is so sad, we looked at the oldies, the youngens, we looked at ourselves, we didn't stop for a game of pool or bowling, we didn't stop from DA's coffee and my ice cream nor did we stop at those white statue mime people (they make me shudder) we headed home to see young people jumping in their mates moving cars, hugging in the moonlight and realized it did us the world of good.....

so my previous post to fuck off (to the coast) and have a beer (at the pub) was right....did it rain? did it bollocks a lovely moonlight night without a cloud in sight xx

low low low

       this is what my world needs

      here

Monday photo dump

A raining week that nearly pushed me to the edge I don't want to go today or any more days I want to be needed, respected, appreciated praying for some phone calls this week x

Just a TA

Not a rant a reflection...............

we had our Speechie visit scheduled for 12 three TA's turned up on time the SWD teacher and Speechie were having their meeting about the meeting in the staffroom, The TA's sat and watched me.....fucks me off no end when this happens I feel like the student (argh) 

so they waited and watched until they'd had enough .... went hunting the SWD  teacher and was told they'd get there when they were ready....nice to be able to sit a chat all day...

Anyhoot they all rocked up..SWD teacher, speechie plus one from a SEU at a SS, the DP, class teacher could move fast enough to start her in-depth lesson she couldn't be dragged away from ....... I was introduced as teacher aide extraordinare , which I promptly corrected as just a TA

we did our stuff then they did theirs, the class performance was on we watched our recorded version and did all the actions together, wonder if that will happen on the day??????????

I am so over it all which is sad the morning I sat in on a maths PD that LST created it was amazing and so very helpful for us, until the prep TA who is scabbing hours left right and centre pipes up when asked for any clarification ...yes she directs at me '' what are your hours and how are you involved in this?'' are you fucking serious???? 

I am not 'involved' in anything it is a program I can use to help the STUDENTS I work with, I even told her to be quiet and I'd explain if she let me....... got a high five at lunch tie from another aide who was there...!!

so sad my colourful gumboots brighten my day and thats all atm xx

  

Gumboots

I am loving BigW's $10 gumboots during the wet weather much to my family's disgust ...
The kids at school love them too and you can't beat year 1 cred xx

My Time ...everything crossed

Learning Facilitator - Camira

We are currently seeking a suitably qualified person for the above position.  The succesful applicant will provide support to our teaching and therapy team in delivering a high quality early intervention program for children with autism spectrum disorder, their families and carers within our Camira centre: 

when the emotions boil over to home it isn't pretty...normally I have  soft place to fall when one is broke, now both are and i am only hanging on by a tread x

broken

I am typing this on an old laptop that n doesn't work until I slam it every time....nearly breaking my finger...

Thats not all that is broken I am I am throwing in the towel and looking elsewhere, I just can't do it anymore, it boils down to lack of communication and a fucked up handover last year...it is killing me mentally, in a nutshell I left all the resources and visuals for MyMate just in case I dropped dead over Christmas I went back and found out the CT chucked most of it out because she didn't understand what it was used for..(I made the stuff out of my ow pocket and in my own time ie at home ) the other aide who shares the role with me if a blonde bimbo who told me she would *#%^ the dad o the first dad, the week later she had a new name for it doable dad...I can't look at him in the eye anymore, he used to call me Mrs B#$*& now he uses my first name in a sultry voice....and he is a man in uniform .... not to mention i have caught her rummaging threw my bag.....

I love working elsewhere in the school, enjoying others seeing me as a real TA....

My Rock is not helping I understand I have OCD issues I am trying so hard to control them or apologize if I don't ...there is lack of consistency, hchanged ea

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Bat shit

Yep I am as bored as bat shit.....I have nothing to do I walk in and support students walk out....even mymate's stuff is done all my stuff from last year getting another going over again walk in walk out

we had our TA meeting today, i was told to take mymate, no problem for me everyone else had an issues fuck off.....x I don't care he high fived me and looked at me in his mirror...x

I have started looking and applying for more jobs I cant stand a whole year of nothing I even signed up for the sustainability group who still haven't had a meeting.......

bbbbbooooooorrrrrriiiiiiinnnnnnggggggg

19 years ago

happy birthday Joshua xx

Gosh was that only week 1

I stayed home on the first day I was a little scared I wouldn't get home ... They all had a great day by the sounds of things
Day rolled around I was given my timetable and I knew I was being taken away from MyMate for the mornings :( but I was going to grade 5 I must say even though I am pissed at the reasons I'm being taken away I am loving working with other people sharing the love and getting acknowledgment from others that I am more than a baby sitter :) x
We were told we are moving ... Later in the week that changed thanks to MyMate we have a toilet in our room plus an enclosed outdoor space so we are staying and having the two / three class move in with us not sure if my feelings about this it is all the year ones I worked with lady year do I know what's coming ...
The lady who is with MyMate hates it she is bored, texts, and generally wants to be else where.... I can't blame her having had a taste and the new CT is doing her way very different :/
So the week rolled on tbc

Day 8 on Day 2

we have to move classroom FUCK day 8!!!!!

still better than sharing  ( it's kinda like doesn't play well with other )

Coming Home

I am coming back to this blog it has been sitting gathering dust while I haven't felt the need to add anything to it my other one is half / half in motion or was until some events made me sit up and realize history could and probably would repeat itself, been there done that and don't want to do it again...

I went back to work Wednesday and did my stuff, I was then told Thursday at PD we didn't need to be there until Thursday and Friday Okay they didn't tell me to go home and they gave me work to do so I did it...no biggie for me they had other ideas wanted to know what I did and who I did it for?

Over the paranoia of others, my rock came back and we had words it didn't end well for her when she left I was part of the 'team' left to pick up the pieces, dust off and start again, which has been done.. unfortunately she is stuck 9 months ago and what it did to her, I can see it having an effect on the start of this year as we have to revisit it which will mean taking us back there, two steps forward three back 'it' may never recover.

On the plus side I have gone back with a renewed view I am good at my job, I get results by following policies procedures, not putting myself in situations which could cause come back and bite me on the bum, I can and do work with a lot of people and get great feedback for my work, I can take constructive criticism, piss me off for your own benefit and you will meet MY wall and never be given the chance to get on my side again. I will be professional not friendly to those who do! I am not conceited, but I'm over being humble !!!