omg

Monday 18
went for a job trial at the local Childcare centre, told work I had an urgent call back from the doctor.

Nothing alllllllll  wwwwweeeeekkkkk llllllloooooooonnnnngggggg

Friday 22.
....1.30PM
walked out of work .....saying I'm heading to mum's for the weekend to deliver Soks the cat, mums cat ran away last month and it ha been nothing but tears all around.

3pm I hand my mum the cat dad hands me a wine......cooks my dinner. I text my sister telling her I've heard nothing, she tells me to ring.....NO I am too fragile for any more knock backs....so I email....got a reply straight away, they loved me but I didn't mention a Dip in my resume .....I email back I will finish within 3 months.....

Sunday 24
7.12 am
An email to say that changed everything....could I go for another trial Monday or Tuesday???  Yes I could DA rang work and told them I was unwell.....no contact or text from anyone......


Monday 25
7.17 am  a call to see if I wanted to work for the day at the 'trial' job.....?  Then an '' You have the job we love love you'' no second trial just a job....

5.23pm a text asking if I could work the next day?  yes......

Tuesday 26 ''can't think straight time wise'' they ask me to a staff meeting at 6pm after my 8-4 shift? yes..
6.20pm get introduced as the new group leader in Junior Kindy and told how wonderful I am...

work 8-4 Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday..... don't know which way is up bought cat food and alcohol only and made my family eat whatever the hell they could get for themselves....
I am still buzzing I love it 34 total but 21 max 2-3 year olds I can't think straight, I go to bed stuffed and wake up with a smile.....

Thursday 5.23 am resign by email (gutless I know) ...... fuk the reply I got by 7.27am along the lines of ring the DP to sort it out I can't leave......fuk you I just did!!!!!!

4.38pm an email to tell staff I'd resigned, they have filled my job, and have more hours for TA's.... I read it with a smile.....door closed  I have had 4 staff contact me expressing their shock I'd left.....
 no comment 'nuf said

calls / emails / texts

I got the job....

job....

I took an hour off Monday to do a job trial at a long daycare ...this has been my never say never goal for a very long time I don't want to be a teacher but I do want a room of my own and little people in my life so I grabbed my hat and off I went.

It was amazing I could have stayed all day and more mentally I was rearranging the room and working on planning for the kids already in the room....I went to back to the real world with 'hi I'm here now (they think I was at the doctors) The duty roster lady came and asked what my duties were and how I felt about doing them, because they didn't think I'd be in and had sorted something else out...change it I'm here.

The CT left me to it only asking that I take a photo of something, the SWD came late for my 10 minutes cause she couldn't be bothered looking for me and knew I'd be right until they were back in class and she could sit down for 10 minutes ......

Then it was the end of the day and I came home..... only to go back the next day and have someone wonderful ask if I was ok ...yep more than 24 hours later did someone bother to give a shit if I was ok....

please god let that phone ring from 10 weeks on two weeks off working 21 hour a week to 38 hours full time in a role that needs love paper work and long hours I am so ready for my mind to be challenged   

Not ready for this

My first an only experience with this and while I HATE school pick up I don't know if I like this either xx

My baby is growing up .... At least he will still want me ..... For petrol money xx

Addicted

I am addicted to the Facebook page of Allison Baydan Clays committal hearing the transcripts are amazing I find myself lost in every word xx

It's a bit like a soapie but real

my week in pix

Help

I did it.... I have put it off for 18 months but I did it this afternoon I didn't get my vowel job the lady said I was under qualified when I meet all the qualification standards plus more... Some of you will remember MLF his mum is best friends of the founders of the vowels, she is a patron and major sponsor so is her husband he builds she pays her parent sponsor 4 children @ $25000 a year

You see my point ...

I texted her and asked for her help on getting a job she knows I can do it is that bad
My reasons are my hours have been cut by 14 this year and a lovely lady ( no sarcasm ) came to replace me she did work experience last year I worked with her ... Has been given 12 hours to work with MyMate in the pm when I go home
Both of us are as uncomfortable with the situation but what can I do smile and reassure her I'm not upset and bitter but I am, really really disillusioned by the fact

Justification to move????

and I did

after much tooing and froing should we go to the beach?  should we go to the Tavern with the kids? Should I just crawl into bed with another wine or two? the shitty raining one minute clear the next was swaying the vote in the end we said lets just do it....

we headed to the coast, we went to Waxy's noise pub on the strip, we amazed BB's gf with out choice,we normally head to Coffee Club, Toscarnis or Hog's Breath all very family friendly....!!!! that we both has a scooner and sang to the band as well as taking selfies shocked her even more...

we looked at rain and wind battered coastline it is so sad, we looked at the oldies, the youngens, we looked at ourselves, we didn't stop for a game of pool or bowling, we didn't stop from DA's coffee and my ice cream nor did we stop at those white statue mime people (they make me shudder) we headed home to see young people jumping in their mates moving cars, hugging in the moonlight and realized it did us the world of good.....

so my previous post to fuck off (to the coast) and have a beer (at the pub) was right....did it rain? did it bollocks a lovely moonlight night without a cloud in sight xx

low low low

       this is what my world needs

      here

Monday photo dump

A raining week that nearly pushed me to the edge I don't want to go today or any more days I want to be needed, respected, appreciated praying for some phone calls this week x