step over the line

Tonight I will be asleep when this year rolls into next or if I am not asleep I will be in bed...not a fan of crowds and I HATE fireworks, but I get other people love it so live and let live..

I have no idea what next year will bring and I don't want to spend the time thinking too hard after the events of this year.
I don't do resolutions but I would like to be a little more conscious of my health both physical and mental and make a little time for spontaneous and planned get a ways.

Art on

I love my job, because it gives me the opportunity to have breaks. Living with anxiety is not fun along with the internal medical issues I have life can be like living in fast forward which means I get stressed and tired twice as quick...but I am learning to cope....
So I finally received some journals for my international journal circle and I let them sit, I will admit to being a little confused on what was excepted then I just clicked a few Google pages and I was off.....my art involves going into the garage where my art space is and and creating not really over thinking just going with the flow, i go in a various times during the day and do little bits...until I know it's finished. yesterday I posted the journals to the next lady in Denmark.....(and spotted a friend in the post office doing some magical posting of her own :) )
My page for R's journal ''the purple owl tree''

my page for L's journal ''animal totems''

now I need to finish my journal for my Circle Chicks 2012 but I am on to it .
love bee x

Christmas Unwrapped

This year we headed to my mum and dad's for Christmas, I can't ever remember going to their house for Christmas ever never mind all of the family in one place is very hard but as it seems not impossible. Mum had been ringing telling me she had tummy ache for days the stress of her job she said...I don't think so....you see we each have our own reasons for the funny feeling in our tummy's we had before walking from the car over the threshold into mum and dad's house....

• A first Christmas in a strange land (that is hot), with strangers who I hope became friends.
• A meeting of anxiety for past regrets.
• A first Christmas without a father, father-in-law and granddad.
• A 17th Christmas sitting around a table that has one chair missing.
• A Christmas walking into a house first or last or even in the middle with issues and egg shells.
• A Christmas to feed 14 people with the above concerns.

Once the whole gang was there, I am not saying it was without incident and the conversations in the cars going home would have been a treat....especially in our car with two merry A's but the heavy feeling we went with was replaced with a full tummy thanks to the sharing of a meal created by many hands and a lighter load off a few shoulders so until next year when who knows what will be we can mark this years Christmas day  with a tick of success.

love bee x

Slowing moving forward

A day at home while The Man took the boys to visit his side of the family who were all holidaying down the Gold Coast. I headed to the shop to grab some bigger guns for the boys they seemed to have a ball with the smaller ones Santa got.
Then help KTH do her blog bits and ending up staying for lunch with them nice healthy sangers and soda pop via the soda stream ;)
A text of thanks and gifts brought home will not make up for the hurtful things that have been done and said..... just how it is going to be from now on.
A few too many had us all laughing and messing about out the front til late days and nights to remember.
love bee x

On my way

Putting the other blog to rest and moving forward with this one....

My love of art, reading and family snippets will be added for those who care to follow or pop by whenever they are bored :)

My Words, My Way is exactly that if you think it is about you maybe it is maybe it isn't that is your choice to move past it or look inward and reflect, not get all shitty with me because I write my words for me to look  back on my journey.....'

Take heart I THINK I write what others are thinking but what do I know?

love bee x 

(cause I am little backwards x)