Family Ties....

Gosh the tears have started before even starting this post...it is about the shifting connection within our family and our family I mean mine....(nee ??? yep that one)

My childhood wasn't that great I can only remember bits and thru therapy can talk about other bits....for me it was hard, we didn't have a lot of money, we didn't have an extended family just mum, dad, bro, sis and me....my dad's parents came to live in Australis when we were small but that is it, they passed when I was 8 and 16.....so I didn't get a 'this is how you do families', with aunts and uncles, cousins were a million miles away..so as I grew older and moved from home I always made a point of 'doing the right thing' well what I thought was the right thing...visits the day before special events so I could please everyone. Made sure gifts were given at the right time even if they had to be hand made...I had doosy fights with DA a lot of times.....I went on my own in tears a lot of times I came home in tears, but I did it, not for brownie points but for me..... (treat others how you would like to be treated and all that!!!)

so this year my boys have serious GF's....as stated before....these are now included in my life....I tried to organise something with my whole family..... and got mixed answers...fair enough we all have shit on...but when I can see the posts have been read and not responded makes my blood boil FB voyeuristic people are my second peeve!!!!

so I said eff it I'll change my style and shift from nee family to my growing family, I have cut one side of my (and I use that term lightly thanks to marriage) family off....I wont go that far but I will not bother to include and change others to my way of doing things, it hurts too much and I don't want to...if you can't fit me in your life so be it, don't expect me to fit into yours....I have plenty to give around but it is no longer going to be wasted nor is it going to have the opportunity to be abused!!! 

This along with my other 'get to' blogs have kept me away from blogger...my blog is open, my friends and foes can see, again I let someone else's feelings change me and my way....no more change is good but changing your core doesn't work it just cost shit loads in medication...!!!