he is staying another week.....after a hundred texts and phone calls he has chosen to stay in Gladstone despite many requests to come home....not much more we can say or do.....

Mother

I jump out of bed, I don't know what time it is..the home phone is ringing, I have been asleep for a while I know it is late......

I say hello and hear my sons tears....he is at the hospital, his girlfriend fainted, she was bleeding he didn't know what to do! He freaked out, her dad and his girlfriend helped him get her to the hospital, his voice cracks again, I slowly find the cold leather sofa but don't feel the cold, I am calm I reassure him, now I am speaking to the dad's girlfriend, she is telling me she knows nothing...x and y are with her, food poisoning is mentioned....  

I don't know who x and y are I tell her......the mum and dad.....she will look after him they are in the car park outside both stunned, both helpless strangers not knowing what to do!!!!!

I tell him I will turn my phone on so he can text me....

he does 1/2 hour later, she is fine he has spoke to her, he is not leaving without her.....

another 1/2 hour I get another text, he needs more time off and money, he is not coming home without her....ok I type get some rest we love you....

another 1/2 hour goes by another text....she has to stay over night, he is not coming home without her....can she stay with us?  

I text  will talk in the morning.....

OMG ...... I thought teething and school teacher interviews were hard....

fuck me!!!!!

Springfield to Gladstone....... no I am not going...... 

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Torn into pieces..... I feel like I am standing on the outside of my life watching it go by. The weekends are a blur of running here and there the school/work days run into each other each with its own set of problems to be solved and not many people sticking their hand up to help.
All the aides have been maximized due to the EB, well all that they can be and one lady was left off the list and came to the meeting and begged yes begged for an extra 45mins a fortnight. Once they tell me my hours are changing I need to work out the how and where my days is otherwise i am up all night thinking hours kids and timetables.
I am happy to go with the flow happy to share the hours happy to change from one hour to the next... And it seems just as we spent the whole last week working out times, classes and split lunch breaks the reason they were leaving my TT blank on all the group emails is because they were waiting for the OA hours ....I scored 7 more hours a fortnight the reason they gave me because not only am I good at my job I don't whine and bitch about the hours and that is the key to getting ahead so now I am the number 2 aide and I kinda like it!!!
We will see how it all works out the first week back.

Blogs to write:
Tax time money
The next jobs at home
I've gone off white
Going into month nine of pads

a day trip....

yep 50 kids, 2 teachers, 6 parents, 1 teacher aide......

a day trip to the SunFay restaurant !!!! we had to get off at Indro, I am thinking the Restaurant near BBC and another 20 min walk, but they have a 'little' very 'little' shop tucked next to the station..... 

we marked the roll, counted, grouped lined up, and counted again.....then we walked the 10 min walk to the station...we sat in the waiting room for 25 mins....

While MrDS's dad came and took MrDS out...way too much for him poor love, I had ''the group''

I had the group the CT was having but she played the delicate job of controlling the parents and their need for food and control...

The food came out in stages....7 of them......it was put on the lazy susan, only adults to touch.....and all six kids hands went straight to it.....I played mum then silently said fuck it they need to be independent as long as I get first dibs on the food go for your lives......I don't know how many times I saw the spoon licked and put back.....i don't know how many sookie looks I saw probably the same number as I said through a mouth full of food ''talk to each other, it is about the shared celebration of sharing a meal not just about getting food on your plate first''......(that is my job)!!!!!!

The trip home was a lot better except for the dog turd on the path.....(no I didn't) and MrDS just beet us back so I had a great day, chill-axing with him xx

3 days..x

just going day by day...I am so worn out mentally, physically, spiritually.....yet the days get busier and busier I fell asleep on the lounge yesterday while watching Totally Wild....then had to listen to the two A's fight ....Oh to be in the middle of that some low blows on both sides xx

back to work today...photos, Speechie. OT ....oh great xx

Don't know what day it is ...

I really have to think I have been in and out of my own drugged coma the last few days and in between the OCD has finally much to DA's delight spilled over to cleaning. He came home the other day to find me in the floor cleaning under the kitchen doors and I cleaned windows and put a blind up in our bedroom that has been sitting out the back for an age!!!!!
I have just dismantled the bathroom removing the towel holder and towel shelf.
We have been distant from each other this week it is Dave week and we have different ways and thoughts on death..... I think about the day sitting in the hospital, the days sitting in daggie trackie dakkies he thinks of his dad next to him at work and his mum.... I just want to know if he understands the meaning if my balloons???? No !!! Really no !!!
Ok.... so after my remark " this is one year on it is not the hardest day that was burying him right you didn't think you could live one day without him, thanks to a leap year you have lived 366 days without him" look how far you have come without him for your boys .... And with them" he was coming home at 10 after my rant he didn't come home until after 3 ....
It has calmed down now so much so we headed to Masters at 3.30 yesterday arvo we wandered and I got to pick a lamp and decided two mirrors the same isn't a bad thing ..... we are back to normal me fussing over the man who helped us to the car hurrying him along so he could get home to his family with DA in the car saying they clock off he is still at work leave him alone .... no the quicker he helps us the quicker he can get home they were turning the lights off telling everyone to make their way to the door... DA was looking for someone to carry the mirror and lamp while we looked at bolts !!!
Any hoot it is a ramble the dishwasher on the washing machine on the bathroom changed around the bath water cold time to get out and see what today brings xx