I really have to think I have been in and out of my own drugged coma the last few days and in between the OCD has finally much to DA's delight spilled over to cleaning. He came home the other day to find me in the floor cleaning under the kitchen doors and I cleaned windows and put a blind up in our bedroom that has been sitting out the back for an age!!!!!
I have just dismantled the bathroom removing the towel holder and towel shelf.
We have been distant from each other this week it is Dave week and we have different ways and thoughts on death..... I think about the day sitting in the hospital, the days sitting in daggie trackie dakkies he thinks of his dad next to him at work and his mum.... I just want to know if he understands the meaning if my balloons???? No !!! Really no !!!
Ok.... so after my remark " this is one year on it is not the hardest day that was burying him right you didn't think you could live one day without him, thanks to a leap year you have lived 366 days without him" look how far you have come without him for your boys .... And with them" he was coming home at 10 after my rant he didn't come home until after 3 ....
It has calmed down now so much so we headed to Masters at 3.30 yesterday arvo we wandered and I got to pick a lamp and decided two mirrors the same isn't a bad thing ..... we are back to normal me fussing over the man who helped us to the car hurrying him along so he could get home to his family with DA in the car saying they clock off he is still at work leave him alone .... no the quicker he helps us the quicker he can get home they were turning the lights off telling everyone to make their way to the door... DA was looking for someone to carry the mirror and lamp while we looked at bolts !!!
Any hoot it is a ramble the dishwasher on the washing machine on the bathroom changed around the bath water cold time to get out and see what today brings xx
You are a cleaning, organizing, thinking machine!
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