Prompt 2.

What is your greatest accomplishment in life so far?

Gosh I am picking corkers...

I struggle with this,,, as most people say my kids...but I don't see having  my kids as an accomplishment, really most females can have children......it is what we were born to do. Yes I understand some struggle with getting pregnant and some fall easier....Then others say marriage but again people do that everyday the world over, on beaches, in church, in Vegas!!!

So I would have to say my greatest accomplishment is keeping the two all together....having kids is easy (for it was) watching them grow and guiding them is the hard bit. I have done the parenting courses, been to see specialists, school interviews and only being told to calm down once by the principal in 14 years is good!!!

Knowing when to jump in and when to hold back is hard I want to do everything for them, I don't want them to know hardship, pain and all the nasties the world brings I want to shelter them....make all the wrongs right!!!! I know that is not helping at all, so standing back and supporting their choices being here as their soft place, holding my tongue, watching them fail is my accomplishment !!!

Next is marriage .....Oh how many times have I been tempted to walk out the door??? Too many to count, when the boys were small I always said I couldn't take the boys from their dad, now that isn't the case we would argue who can keep them in court (just kidding) Yes DA is a prize wanker at times, most of the time I just block it out, I remember going to the doctor in tears saying the disability stuff is doing my head in .....through tears and tissues she asked my what was wrong....then told me as she patted my knee "It's not a disability thing love, it is a man thing!!''

As I watch my boys with their girlfriends (thou one has popped the question and there is a ring ( that is my over sharing comment I'm not ready)) I find the balance of being on their side and the warm and fuzzy feeling of also sticking up for the girls, whispering in their ears about how a man should treat them (yes even if it is my son)....!!!!

I dare say the struggle will always be there, always be nipping at my heels, I know it is a down hill run the balance will shift, new boundaries set....and I will continue being me!!

xx