Perfect

We 'our class' has a Thursday teacher, she is the oral language teacher who works with prep-2 I did work with her last year and she was a little distant, the one who told me to go......so she could chat to the other teacher..this year she wants me as her personal PA....FO

I often see her out and about with her family at places like Bunnings and Ikea I make sure if I see her first I go the other way...as I am sure she does too.

She really pisses me off with her favourite saying 'I can't be perfect at everything, and I try too I HATE that I can't be' ......I don't recall me asking but who wants to be perfect at everything all the time????

Not me, I am happy to make mistakes, and learn from them..

She often comments on the way I do things, I have to work at things yes I maybe able to pull a container from under my desk just the right size when you ask, yes I have ingredients to make playdough any colour you want give me a minute..but my life is about seeing the little things that need doing and preparing for them....I don't see the BIG picture sometimes and get over whelmed by little things.

I see and live a simple life I like nice things but I know they will not always make me happy, I long for a time I can live more simply but that is way in the future.....and many then I wont give a shit and I will want a heater not a fire place I may not have choices as I have now...it wont ever be perfect and I can live with that...!!!1

P

Yes one down and one to go...after a FAIL on Tuesday we were told he had to wait until mid July......then a spot became available Friday at 2pm.......I didn't see him until 10  after he picked B2 up..he wants to go to Toowoomba today in the rain!!!!!!

Crazy daze

Yep it must be a fullmoon no one told me about... You can see from FB what a totally shit arsed day I had yesterday but it really started Sunday afternoon the GF's had to be taken home it is a one hour round trip and while they both can drive they need an adult in the car I don't / can't drive at night but will sit while they do... So I asked what time we would be leaving and got "you're the parent you tell me" well my response was not what they expected a very quite "now" as the sun faded my tears started all the way to Jindalee, Goodna and home then the crap on FB from A1 so angry that he can't see past his nose sometimes and it just all came out in a very different way!!! At school we had Cross Counrty where we run around the park across the road I did it last year but for once put my foot down and said no get some lovely year 7's to do it and they were rapped to do it ... And he didn't came last as he would have if I did it !!!!! I am creating a mini room within the room and concentrating on getting MRDS moving forward !!!! I was asked about documentation and showed my style then got a complement on how wonderful that a teacher can stop and created time to plan for him and provide me with the resources I just smiled yes it is even nicer that someone can see it isn't her at all but that was another conversation with someone who sees the whole picture. So I am tired and emotional and can so understand Lee, nearly time for me to have my meltdown too xox

change

oh and it is here too...great!!!!

Roll with it...or get rolled

School is making me reflect alot of things the first day back was prep enrolment and the SWD teacher was there waiting in line to enrol her boy.....after she had finished she came into the classroom to see what we have been up to and left with the comment 'you have had a term to settle in now you must join the class and work' MRDS is non verbal has limited signing skills and a very strong will (no he shouldn't be at a main stream school but after many meetings, he is staying because he can be there and his mum is in denial her words )

over the holidays I set abut making file folders, fine motor activities and bought a sign language book, each day we work to a program I made incorporating some group time with the class and lots of hands on learning for both of us...

Reading group - with class

writing in reading group book (scribble is good)

Play dough while we look at the SL flashcards

Cutting- he loves this he cuts and make a pile on the floor then without direction picks it all up and puts it in the bin (cause and effect )

Outside time with another aide while I work with the year 1 

LUNCH

group time on floor with class

maths - counting to five anyway we can -leading to match things with numbers

fine motor activities

Ipad when I work with 5/6

LUNCH

specialist classes

reading on mat or playing silly buggers on the cushions

HOME

making the program and resources has got me thinking ho much I enjoy THAT sort of work...wonder if I could find work in that direction........ 

Putting on a show...

Yep that is what I feel I am doing at work I hate feeling this way but sometimes shit happens and reality slaps you in the face HARD!!!

My rock SWDT left to have her 3rd baby...while I love she is having little people I don't see her in the mum of little people roll....so I am really struggling with working with one teacher a year the moving on I don't feel like I can build real friendships (they rave I am good with the student then some never even nod in passing)

So while working with my 5/6 class I got the same group of kids two days running, they smiled and said 'yeah' when they knew they were coming with me again....I bought the class Easter eggs and left a note in their room while they were out, thanking the kids for welcoming me into their class and being so well behaved, I don't know how many have stopped me in the play ground to thank me.....some even said they hadn't got eggs from their teacher since grade 1.... 

I guess that is what it is about if you form real friendships in a school community lucky you if not well being polite doesn't hurt either.....

Day 1 and I need to remember I work a year with one teacher.....it isn't about building friendships it is about supporting students.....