even the cats get it...

 

when our house has ''strangers'' or ''others'' in it the cats are like ninjas they only come out for food and slink out....they hunch down and keep a keen eye out for anyone....they come on my bed when I nana nap  and then go back into hide out mode...
Last night after everyone had gone home Halo went on B1's bed and purred like a train.....he then hopped on the wheel chair and curled up...I couldn't resist picking him up and taking him for a mummy cuddle on my bed....he stretched out and had a pudding rub and made all sorts of contented noises.....
I comment to MOTH and he just tutted ......
if only the cats could talk.....

physically, emotional and spiritedly I am shattered, normally I race home the day no one else is here I dont have school pick up I love being alone with my thought and space, not any more I hate coming home I really hate it I never know what shit I am coming home too and if I have enough strength left to deal with it  I even went to Mt Ommaney on the way and did my grocery shopping there to drag time out....

student teachers.......

yep we have one..though this time it is a little different we have a few who are casing the school not just sitting in one classroom for the whole time....
we have had two for one whole day others pop in and out shadow teacher aides and admin staff...some like to sit others jump in boots and all..
some are OVER confident not sure which I like but it is nice to get feedback from them...???
I do most of the decorating around the room, our teacher can not draw so she tells me what she wants  and I make it pretty.....we have our buddies reflection up under the title 'MY BUDDY & I'' it is a A3 sheet with my favourite food, tv show, etc etc .....

• she asks me if it should be my buddy and me?
•  no I don't think so ?!?!?!?
• but you are just a TA ???
• yes...but a 40 year old one
• HHHHUUUUUMMMM it really should be my buddy and me.....
• no it is where they sat down with their buddy and did a mini interview.....so if asked in a sentence what they did it would be My Buddy and I filled in this sheet......there fore it is MY BUDDY & I....
• NO.....it is wrong.....
• FO FFS GFY!!!!!!!!!!

so I have been second guessing myself for days now.....I can't see grammaticality how you would put my buddy and me in a sentence.......but I am only a TA ...x

 

B1's assignment left for me to check??????????

Strength through Weakness
Liam Bates

When I was one year old my father got diagnosed with Limb Girdle Muscular Dystrophy, which is a diverse group of conditions affecting the voluntary muscles around the pelvic/hip and shoulder regions. My father is 42 years old this year. He moved to Australia when he was 16 from Great Britain. He owns his own business that him and his father started it back 1997 however because my grandfather passed away last year he is running the business by himself.

I have an older brother Anthony, who will be 18 in August and will going for his licence in a few weeks. He works with my Dad at our family business “Repliglass”. Repliglass is company that makes fibreglass car panels bumpers and spoilers as well as other fibreglass repair work. He is on his third year apprenticeship.. I have a caring mother who will do anything for me, she moved to Australia when she was three from Wales. She will be 41 years old this year she is a teacher aide at a school in Brisbane she works with a Down Syndrome boy.

As a child I remember my father failing over all the time and falling over everywhere, at home and out in public, I didn’t really know any different because he was my dad and that is what my dad did. I remember going to all of the doctors all the time when he cutting his head open all the time, when I was little I remember getting talked to about what my dad has and what is going to happen to him.


For my 10th birthday I wanted to go to Dreamworld for my birthday. I remember my mum and dad talking to me about all the time leading up to my birthday. About how we couldn’t go because dad couldn’t walk around for to long, he didn’t want to go where there were families having a good time and if he fell over he knew it wouldn’t be a happy time.

A week before my 10th birthday my father got his first wheel chair. So he could go to Dreamworld and get around places and this meant we could go out to other places as a family. At that point of time that is the strongest and most proud I have seen my dad.

What have I learnt from this experience, I have learnt that in my family all of my family members are strong. But seeing my dad going through what he has to go through in the wheelchair each day. Seeing him at his lowest points and not giving up and always getting back up and trying harder at everything he can do has taught me to see a persons strength.

I went to the doctors the week before last and had some tests...all good nothing to worry about she says....I do have a cold so I got some antibiotics and told to rest.....
This week from Wednesday on I couldn't really stand up straight without massive pain...sweats and feeling like I wanted to throw up...I made an appointment Friday afternoon and was told I had an infection and it had travelled...I should have come in earlier....then lots of girl questions and some advice ....
Into bed and rest for the weekend.........hahahahaha!!!!

Boys v Girl's Parents

yes I have two boys...well two young men actually they both have girlfriends who visit our home regularly. Yes they are allowed in the boys bedrooms, yes the door is shut....YES I trust my boys...

My mum told me on my wedding day DA would do stuff to me that night....then asked if  I was ready WTF  I kid you not as I was leaving my wedding reception!!!!!!! I think she meant the same thing he had been doing to me for the last two years but I didn't want to burst her bubble I am the baby after all....

I (we) have always been open and honest with our boys....they had the ''Where did I come from ?'' books along with the ''whats happening to me'' one.....they loved them..B2 even took his on the plane to Sydney asnd was most horrified when he learnt it goes up and well as between her legs....;]....xo he would ask all sorts of questions like...''when will you know when to stop?'' ''if boys get stiffies what do girls get? How will I KNOW?''   so very very cute back then I am sure (gosh damn hope ) he knows the answers to that and more....

So A1 went into grade 10 he had a longer more grown up talk about respecting young ladies and emotions that go along with 'doing it' ......he was also given protection and an open door if he needed us...none of us were embarrassed, we just have an open mind about things and trust ourselves that education gives a chance for thoughts....

B1 had a girlfriend from grade 5 until year 9....she was beautiful until I read my sons FB messages after they broke up.....at 13 she told him she couldn't go out with him any more cause she liked other boys looking at her and the attention they gave her...after she gave them ...well fill in the blanks.....

He doesn't know I know and well lets say I can see the very tough lesson has learnt.....

So now they have other girlfriends SS and MK both are my FB friends but this didn't happen straight away I didn't want to be their FB friends really, but seeing as the relationships were growing it helps with the trust issues we both have.....one has a coke bottle with her name as the cover pix I bought and she adds that I bought it.....

so we have got to the sleep over stage because our weekends consisted of Friday night drop off, pick up at 9.30 in Jindalee ..Saturday pick up 8.00 drop off at 8.30/9.00 Sunday maybe her parent would drop off and we'd take home....at 7.30...just got ridiculous  so I asked if she could sleep I didn't say where and GOT A NO WAY!!!!!!! she got a you are going on the pill and having that thing in your arm if you are thinking of doing disgusting things....(well if thats the way you think you are doing it wrong)

this took me by surprise but it shouldn't have really.....they are still working on their hang ups....So being me I asked MK if at some stage she had talked to her mum about sleep overs? She went a bit shy and said, her mum wanted to know if she could sleep over this Friday as she was going out? I think she was taken aback when I hugged her and said yes.....

why do I feel like this.....

I trusted my boys

I am open about sex

I have friends who have to live with choices they have made

my young men know them

You see if a boys gets a girl in the family way it affects his life too.....no longer can you run and hide pretend it isn't yours.....you have to make the commitment to the girl or live with that fact every time you met someone else you will be judged each and every time by her and her loved ones....you have to be ready for some other bloke to go where you have been and maybe raise your child every day.....you have to pay for the child impacting on more than your life.....and the dreams you want!!!!

In essence you grow up fast and as you can see from our perspective parenting isn't the easiest gig in the world...so staying up all night maybe fun when you are drinking and dancing but it isn't when you have to face not only the choices you made or didn't make but your eyes looking back at you x

Dont get me wrong I want to be a Nona cant wait to meet my grandchildren when the time is right....I am happy to wait but not too long....cuddles cuddles cuddles and spoiling....x

too raw

• mothers of boys vrs girls
• family
• work
• princess
• questioning myself
• OCD
• husbands (well just mine)