when the emotions boil over to home it isn't pretty...normally I have  soft place to fall when one is broke, now both are and i am only hanging on by a tread x

broken

I am typing this on an old laptop that n doesn't work until I slam it every time....nearly breaking my finger...

Thats not all that is broken I am I am throwing in the towel and looking elsewhere, I just can't do it anymore, it boils down to lack of communication and a fucked up handover last year...it is killing me mentally, in a nutshell I left all the resources and visuals for MyMate just in case I dropped dead over Christmas I went back and found out the CT chucked most of it out because she didn't understand what it was used for..(I made the stuff out of my ow pocket and in my own time ie at home ) the other aide who shares the role with me if a blonde bimbo who told me she would *#%^ the dad o the first dad, the week later she had a new name for it doable dad...I can't look at him in the eye anymore, he used to call me Mrs B#$*& now he uses my first name in a sultry voice....and he is a man in uniform .... not to mention i have caught her rummaging threw my bag.....

I love working elsewhere in the school, enjoying others seeing me as a real TA....

My Rock is not helping I understand I have OCD issues I am trying so hard to control them or apologize if I don't ...there is lack of consistency, hchanged ea

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Bat shit

Yep I am as bored as bat shit.....I have nothing to do I walk in and support students walk out....even mymate's stuff is done all my stuff from last year getting another going over again walk in walk out

we had our TA meeting today, i was told to take mymate, no problem for me everyone else had an issues fuck off.....x I don't care he high fived me and looked at me in his mirror...x

I have started looking and applying for more jobs I cant stand a whole year of nothing I even signed up for the sustainability group who still haven't had a meeting.......

bbbbbooooooorrrrrriiiiiiinnnnnnggggggg

19 years ago

happy birthday Joshua xx

Gosh was that only week 1

I stayed home on the first day I was a little scared I wouldn't get home ... They all had a great day by the sounds of things
Day rolled around I was given my timetable and I knew I was being taken away from MyMate for the mornings :( but I was going to grade 5 I must say even though I am pissed at the reasons I'm being taken away I am loving working with other people sharing the love and getting acknowledgment from others that I am more than a baby sitter :) x
We were told we are moving ... Later in the week that changed thanks to MyMate we have a toilet in our room plus an enclosed outdoor space so we are staying and having the two / three class move in with us not sure if my feelings about this it is all the year ones I worked with lady year do I know what's coming ...
The lady who is with MyMate hates it she is bored, texts, and generally wants to be else where.... I can't blame her having had a taste and the new CT is doing her way very different :/
So the week rolled on tbc

Day 8 on Day 2

we have to move classroom FUCK day 8!!!!!

still better than sharing  ( it's kinda like doesn't play well with other )

Coming Home

I am coming back to this blog it has been sitting gathering dust while I haven't felt the need to add anything to it my other one is half / half in motion or was until some events made me sit up and realize history could and probably would repeat itself, been there done that and don't want to do it again...

I went back to work Wednesday and did my stuff, I was then told Thursday at PD we didn't need to be there until Thursday and Friday Okay they didn't tell me to go home and they gave me work to do so I did it...no biggie for me they had other ideas wanted to know what I did and who I did it for?

Over the paranoia of others, my rock came back and we had words it didn't end well for her when she left I was part of the 'team' left to pick up the pieces, dust off and start again, which has been done.. unfortunately she is stuck 9 months ago and what it did to her, I can see it having an effect on the start of this year as we have to revisit it which will mean taking us back there, two steps forward three back 'it' may never recover.

On the plus side I have gone back with a renewed view I am good at my job, I get results by following policies procedures, not putting myself in situations which could cause come back and bite me on the bum, I can and do work with a lot of people and get great feedback for my work, I can take constructive criticism, piss me off for your own benefit and you will meet MY wall and never be given the chance to get on my side again. I will be professional not friendly to those who do! I am not conceited, but I'm over being humble !!!